Sunday, August 31, 2008 @ 7:26 PM

everyday is a new start
new day? new start?

i should know from the start that good things are short lived
never expect myself to be so stupid and naive
thinking back on the first month
it's just a very beautiful dream of mine
as days and months past things are different

i dont blame anyone
because i commited too many sins
that no god can forgive me
it just left a tattoo on my honey's heart

there's nth i can do to stop my heart from aching
there's nth i can do to stop my tears from welling up in my eyes

i know i am a strong person
because i love him i can withstand anything on my way
i am very wrong, if only the world can forgive me.
my days aint getting any better.
i hope everything i am going through now is worth it.


*Yesterday by Leona Lewis
I thought our days would last forever, But it wasn't our destiny
Cos in my mind we had so much time, but i was so wrong
No, I can believe me
I can still find the strengh in the moments we made

Labels: i'm looking back on yesterday

@ 4:46 AM

Saturday
woke up at ard 12pm
my cousin was at my hse
so bathe then used com for awhile
went cp with my cousin &ahma for lunch
aft that walked ard cp
my cousin wants to go kovan
&he asked me to acc him there
at first wanna take train
in the end took 80 over
saw hafizah on bus
meet pepper at kovan
acc her to bank bought a card for hunnie(:
aft that went to some place to write the card
took bus over to hun's hse soon after
it was raining cats &dogs then
reached hun's hse, joanne justin junjye jasper
kenny daniel &zhihao was alr there
cant really rmb lol, alvin came
played mahjong all the way till night
ate kfc, cut cake, drink, smoke, ..
overall played 3 pok
took cab home with pepper at ard 345am
reached home ard 4am

Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to HUNNIE
Happy Birthday to you:DDDDD

i Love you, i Love you(:

not going anywhere today
gonna do chinese practice paper
cant see hunnie so often alr
it's n lvl, but i just have to miss him for awhile
then aft nlvl i can see him everyday!

counting down to my 16th birthday..
2nd OCTOBER! it's history nlvl ):
i dont expect anything much
just all my loved ones around me
hunnie, pepper, fiona,
kenny, daniel, junjye,
alvin, zhihao, sean.

p/s. a cake for me?
i have never got a cake from my friends before..

i still wanna thank fiona for celebrating my bday with me last year
although it's just a very very plain celebration
thank you girl! i Love you(:

Saturday, August 30, 2008 @ 12:58 AM

Labels: i Loved you, like i always do.

@ 12:07 AM

Friday
due to me using com till too late
cant wake up in the morning
so didnt turn up for school agn
pepper called me in morning
and my mum thought i am not going sch
she placed my phone outside
so in the end woke up at ard 1plus
was intending to go gym with fiona
she wasnt free, so changed plan
meet pepper instead
went over to her hse
then headed to kovan to study(:
finshed my chemistry paper
teached pepper ss skills
then walked over to heartland
bought foolscape paper &a 60cents pen
it was getting a little bored
so went outside heartland
slacked at a very weird spot ard the bustop
LOL, pepper's leggings got holes
so went heartland to find
too expensive so decided to go bugis
long bus ride, luckily there's tv mobile
thanks to globalisation we've got entertainment
bwahahahas!
the show got a gay, i just cant stop laughing
really damn funny, i bet pepper was laughing also
finally we reached our stop
obviously we alighted
walked to street, shopped
we bought leggings &a shirt
&pepper bought a belt also
then took 80 back to hg

on the bus we saw junjye &yibiao
hahas, he really made me &pepper laugh
and he was disturbed by yibiao
the people ard us was looking also
LOL, they alighted at hg mall interchange
we alighted a stop after
went to a place ard there to slack
pepper saw her brother's friend (i think)
talk quite alot of crap
took bus home at ard 1030
reached home at 11pm

my mum &my bro went malaysia
so my dad went drinking
wahahahas, i own the house now

today is boyf's birthday celebration
happy 16th birthday hunnie(:

Labels: a moment like this

Friday, August 29, 2008 @ 1:52 AM

although it's late perhaps 'early', still cant go to sleep
so decided to make another post
edited my pictures, listened to songs
nth much to do..
i think i'll try to make myself sleep soon
hunnie is currently playing mahjong with kenny
i miss him dreadfully
LOL, quite a serious word to use
but i really have no idea what better word to use
hahas, it's a little crude but i really miss my honey!
i saw him just now, but once he left my sight
i start missing him already

oh gosh, i think i am going mentally deranged

honey, we have gone through so so much
i want this relationship to last(:
it's our third month already
maybe your feelings towards me have changed
but i still love you as much.

@ 12:50 AM

Thursday
went hg mall to pass my sister something
then headed to hunnie's hse
junjye zhihao came
went down to eat with pepper
then kenny &alvin came
they started to play mahjong
zhihao &alvin left for night study
junjye headed home i think
went mall with hun, pepper &kenny
ordered cake for dearest's birthday
went fairprice with pepper
and bought quite alot of stuffs for hun
then went kfc to eat
kenny went hun's hse
went to a nearby void deck to slack with pepper
home at ard 1030
reached home at ard 11pm

*******************
I just can't believe you're gone,
Still waiting for morning to come,
When I see if the sun will rise,
In the way that you're by my side,

Where we had so much in store
Tell me what is it all reaching for
When we're through building memories
I'll hold yesterday in my heart, in my heart

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams, take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have yesterday

They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams, take everything
Just take it away,
But they can never have yesterday

You always choose to stay
I should be thankful for everyday
Heaven knows what the future holds
Or least where the story goes,
I never believed until now

I know I'll see you again, I'm sure
No, it's not selfish to ask for more
One more night one more day
One more smile on your face
But they can't take yesterday

I thought our days would last forever (But it wasn't our destiny)
Coz in my mind we had so much time, but i was so wrong
No, I can believe me
I can still find the strengh in the moments we made

I'm looking back on yesterday

Labels: till death do us part.

Thursday, August 28, 2008 @ 11:51 AM

Wednesday
left the house at ard 615
went over to rp to meet pepper &kenny
studied Social studies &Biology
then got a little distractions
so end up chatting
we decided to find a void deck to chat
home at ard 11pm

i didnt attend school today
was lazy, LOL
meeting honey ltr

Labels: predict the near future

Wednesday, August 27, 2008 @ 2:18 PM

today school as usual
just felt that my class felt so empty
miss the times when we used to be sitting tgt
things are different now
home straight aft school
as it was raining and i dont know whr to go
i guess i am gonna meet shirley at night
to study, next week is ss paper
so now i am gonna study first

when i was going home just now
i saw the small raindrops falling on the road
then i saw little children wearing rain coats
let me remember many years ago
when my mum fetch me home from school
i was wearing a raincoat also
that time, my family wasnt doing well
we had trouble having 3 meals a day
but my mum still bought me things that i wanted
like slippers, rain coat, chocolate
i am really gonna give her a good life when i grow up

Life is sososo precious
not only we humans think that way
even a cockroach thinks similar
i saw a lymph, crawling to a shelter
although i hate those creeping crawlies,
seeing them like that, i find them adorable-.-

i hate human nature, because of the born nature
that every human have. it made our world a very pleasant
&torturing place to live in. yes, we are all intelligent people
that's why we have trains, food, cars, computer, mobiles
but on the other hand, we are the most selfish creature
robberies, fights, quarrels, stealing, killings, etc..
i believe hatred &love is a very selfish sin to commit.
there's a reason why god made us this way
maybe thats what make the world go round?
i am still looking for an answer to this question

why can we communicate?
why can we educate ourselves?
why can we socialise with different people?
(have you ever heard of a bird talking to a fish?)
there's still many why(s), maybe if animals could communicate,
they would ask each other questions about humans.

why dont we kill ourselves to give food to others?
why dont we give the food we have to someone else?
just a simple reason, because humans are selfish by nature.

i wont choose(*if i have a choice) to be a human in my next life.

the sight of you irks me, i still cant believe that you are sucha person in disguise. if killing is not a crime, you will be the first one that i am gonna lay my knife on.
let me get a little random here:
1. dig out your eyes to let my dog play with it.
2. pull out all ur teeth make a necklace for you, so you can wear in on your funeral
3. cut your ears out and you chew on it *cos it's gonna hurt you know.
4. remove your vital organ and donate it to people=)
*but i think no one is gonna want it. so i'll feed the dogs &chickens instead.
5. your nose is still intact, i am gonna suffocate you.
there's many more .. i dont wish to elaborate here.
&yes, i am gonna put maggots on your eyes and it will help you eat your flesh
hmmmmm, yummy!

Labels: prepared for the worse.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008 @ 7:31 PM

Monday
went over to pepper's hse to meet her
then took 74 over to amk
saw mdm cheung on bus
LOL, then alighted ard hub
walked over to to find pepper's mum
then her baby sister is adorable
accompanied them awhile
walked over to posb
as pepper wants to deposit money
then went over to hub to buy bubble tea
walked to a kfc, eat
then walked to 74 bustop
took till mall then changed bus home
reached home at ard 1030pm

today, no one came school
hun, pepper, kenny, jasper nvr come school
so it was a boring day
no one to crap with me
anyway, chatted with mr teo during lessons
aft school meet pepper outside school
then took bus over to hun's hse
meet kenny, weishen &jasper dwnstairs
then slacked at his hse
went dwnstairs to eat with pepper
then watched tv
went home at ard 630

so many things came out of nowhere again. problems after problems. maybe i am at fault. but what rights do you have to criticise me like this. do you still call yourself a man? fancy you being a year older than us. what's your motive for doing all this? you want to ruin my relationship with jiyou or let everyone around me leave me? i know you aint a stupid person. you do all this because you know you will have something better in return. get the facts right! have some textual knowledge before acting. i may have offended you in some ways before. you used to tell me, what's done is done. since our relationship is over, why bother rake things out again? you're just practically making the situation worse. i still cannot confirm what did you say about me. be it factual or lies. through this battle of facts, we shall see. only intelligent people tells lies, i believe you are considered one of them. i believe that there are many cluttered misunderstandings between us. but dont you ever forget what you told me before. things that you do, you think you have applied a layer of foundation and no one can see your flaws. whatever you've been doing, the world's watching. i am very interested in the lies that you've spoken and blantanly placed it on my mouth. I do not have to defend myself about the dramatic crap cause people with normal level of intelligence would intepret it for themselves! no matter how tragic the results are gonna be, i thank everyone that have been beside me all the while, helping me, pulling me through every crisis. i definitely hope that our lord in heaven can do some justice.

about another problem that happened between me and my relatives:
i seriously hope that your daughter would be blogging and she can show you this post that i am gonna pan you. you being a mother of three children, could behave like that and say such words. wow, what a joke. i wonder how would you be able to mould your kids into sucessful figures in future.
there are so many things in the world you can criticise about my cousin, his tattoos, his piercings.. but why in the name of god would you criticise his scars? do you think he wants it? this shows how COLD you are. laughing at people's misfortune? my boyf also got scars, if you dare say about him, i'll cut your face. do you think they want it. Isnt it sad that one's face got slashed just because he was there? For no apparent reason. For nothing. how would you feel if it is your face that is scarred? shame on you.
at least they have the courage to face the world, instead of hiding at home.

problems are happening to me continuosly, set me free.
i dont want any of this to affect my relationship with jiyou.
thats my biggest worry, but i shall prevent any possibility of such events from happening.
i cant make myself believe anyone around me now.
&all i love is him.

Monday, August 25, 2008 @ 2:22 PM

Sunday
went over to hun's hse
meet pepper dwnstairs
then went up waited for hun to bathe
kenny came also
then took cab over to kovan to fetch
justin &joanne went over to geylang
rotted there till ard 5
took 80 to mall ate kfc
went to hun's hse with kenny,justin,joanne,alvin
stayed there till 8plus, bused home

today, school as usual
played puppet show in class
LOL, then i passed 4 subjects
wahahas, although is not good
at least an improvement!
currently at home waiting for my dad to come home
then i am going to meet pepper.

hey my blog readers please let me vent my anger for the whole year here. Let me highlight this, i am not pin pointing any particular person out. So it's up to you guys to guess. i wont say even if you come up to my face and ask me. As for everyone who knows me, i hate being criticised. well who likes it? get the rules right before plunging into a perpetual hole of shame. you may be some kind of 'nice, mature, clever..' , so what? i guess you dont have the language that i am using now. and you definitely do not have the intelligence that i have. you may think that i am very proud or arrogant by saying all this, but please in the first place can you be proud or arrogant? maybe you have the money, so what? i may not be as rich as you. but my knowledge is of a much higher level than yours. i am not trying to use my brains to scare you (if you feel scared) it's just a point i want to boast about. because you, yourself have boasted about yourself. but it's about something you dont have. So what's the point? fancy using the same approach I used to shame you. please dont try me. i may be a geek deep in my heart that's why my english is gazillion times better than yours. if you ask me what this person did, is up to you to guess, please please please dont come and ask me.

i'm definitely not talking about my close ones. it has been quite some time since this incident. just that i did not tell anyone. i think i need my views to be posted up in my blog. if not i think i will blow up.

I do not want someone so upright and loyal to be blinded by itself.

ps. Also, precisely, my skin is thick that's why I need not use foundation everyday to look as "immaculate" as you. i have got the wits so thats when my pea brain comes to good use. BEAT that man. i dont have to think twice before i speak because my brain thinks at a speed twice of yours so thinking once is enough to beat yours, perhaps for many times.

Sunday, August 24, 2008 @ 1:39 PM

Saturday
woke up at ard 11am
watched tv for awhile then had lunch
went back to sleep at ard 1pm
as i was very tired and sleepy
so slept till ard 3pm
bathe &got ready
then headed to hun's hse
pepper, kenny, zhihao is alr there
they playing mahjong
went over mall to train to ps
watched a 9pm show, 4bia
walked ard ps
collected the ring i bought for hunnie
didnt intend to give him ytd
but kenny asked me to
so gave him the ring, LOL
i guess i was blushing, shy siol.
then went staircase to try ciga that hun &kenny bought
smoke until i headache
our movie is starting soon so went up
this show is scary especially the last one
aft movie took cab kenny send pepper home
i went hunnie's hse
my parents quarreling agn ):
stayed at his hse until ard 245 am
then took cab home

i am going out soon
cos need to meet a councellor
idk whether is it a councellor anot
anyway blog mre about today when i'm free.

Labels: a total retard.

Saturday, August 23, 2008 @ 11:35 AM

1.You have 10 dollars and need to buy snacks at a gas station:` timeout, ice lemon tea, chips, m&m
2. If you were reincarnated as a sea creature, what would you want to be?` shark
3. Whos your favorite redhead?` lindsay lohan
4. What do you order when youre at McDonalds?` mcspicy
5. Last book you read?` our little secret
6. Describe your mood.` sleepy &hungry
7. Describe the last time you were injured?` just recently
8. Of all your friends, who would you want to be stuck in a well with?` my boyf, LOL:D
9. Rock concert or symphony?` symphony
10. What is the wallpaper of your cell phone?` currently none
11. Favorite Soda?` sprite
12. What type of shirt are you wearing?` SL Jersey
13. If you could only use one form of transportation:` my own car
14. Most recent movie you have watched in theatres?` A month of hungry ghost
15. Name an actor,actress,singer you have had the hots for:` Marilyn Manson:DDDD
16. Whats your favorite kind of cake?` Chocolate!
17. What did you have for dinner last night?` Fried rice.
18. Look to your left, what do you see?` my cup of water, my dad's invoice.
19. Do you untie your shoes when you take it off?` Lols, nopes
20. Favorite toy as a child?` Barbie dolls.
21. Do you buy your own groceries?` nopes
22. Do you think people talk about you behind your back?` Definitely, cos i myself do.
23. Whens the last time you had gummy worms?` wow, i guess thats long
24. Whats your favorite fruit?` oranges
25. Do you have a picture of yourself doing a cartwheel?` Lols, nopes
26. Do you like running long distances?` Yeahs, i hate short distances.
27. Have you ever eaten snow?` yeahs
28. What color are your bedsheets?` Blue, chicken little(:
29. Whats your favorite flower?` tulips
30. Do you do ballet?` when i was young
31. Do you listen to classical music?` Yeahs, when i was in the choir last time
32. Do you hate someone very badly at that moment?` nope
33. Do you watch Spongebob?` lol, when my bro is watching
34. What temperature is it outside right now?` hmms, quite cold, 23?
35. Do people consider you smart?` in studies, not in life.
36. How many piercings do you have?` 6
37. Are you signed on AIM?` yeahs
38. Have you ever tried gluing your fingers together?` Nopes
39 How do you feel about your family?` nothing much
40. Do you have an iPod?` yeahs
41. What time do you go to bed?` Last night? 10plus.
42. What CD is currently in your CD player?` not playing a cd
43. What movie do you know every line to?- iceage 2
44. What is your favorite salad dressing?` i dont take salad
45. What do you want for Christmas this year?` i wanna go moscow.
46. What family member/friend lives the farthest from you? Where?` my cousin's family, London
47. Do you like hugs?` oh i yearn for that.
48.Whats the way people most often mispronounce any part of your name?` Surrender, Lol, zhihao's mum-.-

Friday, August 22, 2008 @ 10:00 PM

continued post

so in the end i didnt sleep till mrn
was using com, watching tv, talking to ahma
all the way till morning
i thought hun was going school
so waited for his msg
i think he played along
lol, in the end he didnt attend school
slept till ard 11am
ahma was questioning why i no need go school
then i say today learning journey
she keep asking &asking
then ask me faster go prepare
i want to sleep but i scared ltr she tell my mum
so just go bathe then bluff her can wear home clothes
LOL, i guess she believed me
took bus to plaza, bought cigs
then headed to hun's hse
bopian, nowhere to go
waited for pepper to wake up
then meet her at mall
went bank to settle some bank stuff first
obviously. Lols.
went kfc to eat, it has been a long time since i ate that
aft that bought my shawl
took train to outram to pay for my hsa
luckily no need go court
as for what continues next is a secret

end up at mall at ard 7plus
slacked awhile, then acc pepper to wait for her bus
went over to rp to meet hunnie for awhile
alvin, junjye&sean was there also
walked home at ard 9pm

i hope to meet fiona tmr
so i hope she can be free
long day, i'm very tired
sleeping early tonight(:

Labels: hunnie is missed by me.

@ 12:35 AM

hello everyone
friday already heh!
have been facing the com for the past few hrs
i want to sleep
but my brain is asking me not to
'sleep early, wake up early'
'so better not sleep, cos tmr you nt gng school'
LOL, just being a little ramdom here
i'm very bored!

hunnie says he's gonna sleep aft his LAST game of dota
so i hope he's really gonna go sleep
cos i think he's going school tmr
i finished my audi alr, didnt manage to level up in the end
my head pain alr, see all the arrows-.-
gonna go do blogthings now(:

You Are Disturbingly Profound
You're contemplative, thoughtful, and very intense.Taking time to figure out the meaning of life is a priority for you.Because you're so introspective, you often react in ways that surprise people.No one can really understand how you are on the inside... and that disturbs them.

You Are A Great Girlfriend!
You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise!Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro.If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you.You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.

heyhey my japanese name is : Shoko Yamashina
okay i'm turning in soon, maybe aft a puff.
Good nights everyone(:

Labels: TAGS Please:D

Thursday, August 21, 2008 @ 8:51 PM

today, school as usual
mrn meet justin &pepper at 401
cos justin wanna pass cigs to pepper
aft that took 62 to school
school was boring{:
raining cats and dogs
so was a little cold in class
i failed dnt): anyway it's expected
so physics &tamil to me
but borderline fail
so i must strive harder for nlvls

aft school went hun's hse with pepper
kenny &weishen came
followed by zhihao
they started mahjong
while i was sleeping
then used com, changed url
the-xblackparade.bs.com
aft that went home
just finished dinner &bathing
i am gonna play audi ltr
it has been a long time since i last played
not gonna go school tmr.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008 @ 8:38 PM

Tuesday
they continued playing the 'fei' mahjong
then i slept all the way until 7plus
took bus home
guess what? traffic light spoil
stuck at the road junction for 15mins, LOLS
reach home, bathe, use com, sleep.

today, school as usual
heyhey, i passed maths(:
hahas, i felt soso happy
cos i used to fail like shit for midyear
at least got hope for nlvls
aft school went pepper's hse
waited for her to bathe
then went her hse dwnstairs slack
for abt an hr or so
headed to mall, window shopping
wasted ard 2-3hrs there
saw raphael, leixuan, kenny
aft that went cc to find hunny
in the end he's at daniel's hse bustop
so sorry hunnie, my hp spoil
but luckily i manage to on my phn
so i do believe miracles would happen
aft that cabbed home.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008 @ 3:24 PM

Monday
school as usual got back our exam papers
i pass maths paper1, chinese, science(:
i failed english):
fuck it man
history &SS no need say
so wait for the rest of the subjects
aft school went home change
then went mall to meet pepper
headed to hun's hse
slept awhile then started mahjong
home at ard 10pm

today school is boring
but raining so quite cooling
crapped alot with pepper &jasper in class
aft school went hun's hse
pepper came, she's fast
so now hunny, pepper, alvin &zhihao
are playing mahjong
junjye, weishen &jasper are also here
going home early today(:

yeah man, my parents are renovating my room
new cupboard, new aircon
painting my room, any suggestions?
i got my platform bed! finally aft 10years of waiting
new com, new tables &shelfs

&jasper is gonna race with shawn yue &edison chen tonight
aft mahjong we're gonna help him with his AE86
good luck for his race, i hope he drank enough milk
cos he needs eyes &his cup of water wont spill
LOLOLOLOL, p.s. GTR is not a slow car...

Labels: i Love Hunnie:D

Sunday, August 17, 2008 @ 4:47 AM

Friday
stayed at hun's hse
then went home to bathe
walked over to kenny's hse to meet pepper
slacked at void deck for a while
then walked over to cp with pepper &kenny
kenny went cc so both of us walked ard cp
aft that took 161 over to hougang
cos i wanted to collect my lenses
aft that walked to pepper's hse
slacked at her void deck awhile
then went up to her hse to pray
took 82 to rp to meet shirley
went over to cc cos i am gng her hse
&cc is nearby, meet the guys awhile
then went up to her hse
played half pok of mahjong
then ard 11plus took 372 home.

Saturday
woke up at ard 12
got ready then went over to mall to meet my sis
eat &chatted then meet pepper at temple
luckily i didnt lost my way
so prayed then took bus over to hun's hse
started a pok of mahjong
aft that walked over to mall
meet shirley inside train
went vivo, watched 7th month show
i dont find it nice, it's boring in fact
aft the movie took 80 to hougang
went to hun's hse agn
i slept awhile while the rest played mahjong
continued for shirley aft i woke up
then took cab home with pepper &shirley

currently i am blogging at hme
i am gonna sleep soon, aft i bathe
okay, i miss hunnie alr:D
lols, nlvls nlvls nlvls
it's round the corner
sec5? higher nitec? shatec?

oh man, what a headache.

Friday, August 15, 2008 @ 10:56 AM

continued post

Thursday
went hunny's hse aft school
cos i forgot to bring keys
junjye came, followed by pepper &kenny
then started 1 pok of mahjong
i dont have much luck ytd
so lose money, it's okay
cos i very seldom play
wait till n lvls over then play agn
aft that hun send me home

today, biology paper
nearly late but in the end i wasnt late
i think at least a borderline pass?
there is some mistakes with the paper
but mdm lung wasnt there
so nvm, i think the problem lies with me
i dont even understand the question
concentrated sugar solution &distilled water
what higher water potential?
lols, at least the heart &plant part still okay
carbon dioxide+water with chlorophyll &light = glucose+oxygen
wahahas 2 marks leh, luckily i did memorise
okay currently at hunnie's hse
post more abt today agn.
bye all:D

Thursday, August 14, 2008 @ 1:05 PM

continued post.

Wednesday
aft they finish mahjong
studied then junjye came
followed by daniel &alvin
hunnie send me home at ard 1030
reached home bathe then sleep

today, my dad fetched me to school
cos i woke up at 650
then E maths paper 2 shld be okay
chemistry is quite difficult
so i hope my biology can help me pass
okay post more abt today another time

Wednesday, August 13, 2008 @ 5:39 PM

Your Mind is Green
Of all the mind types, yours has the most balance.You are able to see all sides to most problems and are a good problem solver.You need time to work out your thoughts, but you don't get stuck in bad thinking patterns.You tend to spend a lot of time thinking about the future, philosophy, and relationships (both personal and intellectual).

Your Five Variable Love Profile
Propensity for Monogamy:Your propensity for monogamy is high.You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person.And in return, you expect the same from who you love.Any sign of straying, and you'll end things.
Experience Level:Your experience level is medium.You probably have had a couple significant loves.And you may have even had your heart broken.But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people.
Dominance:Your dominance is low.This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced.You know a relationship is not about getting your way.And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom.
Cynicism:Your cynicism is medium.You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love...But you've definitely been burned enough to know better.You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist.
Independence:Your independence is medium.In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time."You usually find it easy to be part of a couple.But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.

You Are Lightning
Beautiful yet dangerousPeople will stop and watch you when you appearEven though you're capable of random violence
You are best known for: your touch
Your dominant state: performing

You Are a Total Brainiac
You're amazingly brilliant. Some would even say crazy.You're curious, thoughtful, analytical, and confident.You take on difficult subjects because you want to... not because you have to.No field of knowledge is too complicated or intimidating for you.You've got the brains to do anything you want. It's possible you end up doing everything you want.

@ 4:40 PM

Monday
headed to hun's hse aft bathing
then went gym to meet shirley &daniel
daniel did not bring wallet so went badminton court
jasper came awhile ltr
pepper &kenny came along as well
ard 4 headed to cp with pepper
she bought a bag
then shirley came, ate kfc
pepper &shirley came my hse
cos i wanna put my things
meet hun &kenny at my hse dwnstairs
then went to hun's hse
home at night:D

Tuesday
history paper, i think i am gonna fail
but at least what i studied for SEQ did came out
so i think i can pass section B but i will fail section A
cos i only did the inferencce question
&left the rest black
so at least a 10marks? double digit^^
i dont take physics so went library to complete my folio
then went to workshop to do my presentation board
finally finished everything
i gave up my artefact so i hope my folio &board
can give me mre marks
went hunny's hse with kenny &pepper aft that
home at ard 830pm

today, my dad fetched me to school
cos i was very late, woke up at ard 645
dnt paper today, it's much easier
than midyear paper
so hopefully a double digit
went home at ard 930am
today 1 paper only, sleep until 1plus
then headed to hun's hse
saw kenny downstairs so went up tgt

currently hun, kenny, pepper &zhihao
is playing mahjong i just woke up frm my wonderful sleep
tmr is E maths &chemistry paper
i hope my calculator would be back soon
cos i definitely will be using it tmr
&prelims is gonna be over soon
but N levels are coming soon

Monday, August 11, 2008 @ 6:33 AM

hello ! i'm home, frm malaysia
saturday, woke up got ready cabbed dwn to KL
then took 5plus flight back to sg
OMG, taking plane alone is boring
aft a long delay, reached sg at ard 7
cabbed home, changed
then went pool, gave darling a surprise
aft that went plaza meet shirley
went my hse dwnstairs slacked till 345am
then home

i aint perfect
i'm not perfect
samantha is not perfect
i'm inperfect or imperfect
*dont knw how to spell

practice makes perfect
but no one is perfect, so why practice?

you see, prefect is spelt like perfect
just that the r &e the other way round
so wanna be sch prefect also but be perfect in rafi's eyes

so person A might find you perfect &person B not
you can nvr be perfect in the world's eyes
dont tell me you talk to the DM &your boyf in the same attitude
maybe you do, but how bout your best friend &someone you hate?
maybe you say you talk the same
what about when you're angry &when you're happy?

*************

maybe everyone sees me as a innocent &childish person
seriously i myself sometimes have difficultly
understanding me myself
just found out something
many ppl ard have no bloody idea what i'm thinking
i admit i'm a selfish person
i do things without going through my brain
i do what i think that i will be happy
i nvr thought of the feelings for the ppl ard me
i'm aware that i might have hurt ppl ard me
i dont have a lifetime to change, *something i learnt tday
i guess i have to do what i can do now
before it's too late

i found out another thing is
i have great ppl ard me
'they' gave me tonnes of chances
when i commit a mistake agn &agn
i didnt realise that till today
sorry pals!
i have to make amendments to my mistakes
before it's too late to even bother to change

its hard to kick a habit
just like quit smoking
but i believe if i have the determination
i can do it. *not quit smoking okay.
i used* to say i'm born like that, change for what?
i realised thinking that way is WRONG!
if everyone thinks like me
i dont think s'pore will have mrt, lrt
shopping malls, schools, buildings &homes
one must learn to improve one's thinking &belief
if ppl dont do that, then ppl will be forever stuck there
not moving to a higher level of life
why history &geography got revised edition
&new edition, etc..
so the world is improving also.

i dont need time
i just need a oppurtunity.

everyday is a new day, new start
the sun is up high, the other part of the world
is experiencing night, sleeping perhaps?
i hope the wonderful sun will clean all the sins i did ytd
&give me a chance to be a better person today
who says samantha cant push the Eiffel tower?
she shall be the first one to do it.

Saturday, August 9, 2008 @ 11:08 PM

Thursday
went anchorvale cc to meet yunting
then went swimming
saw zhihao's mum then swam with her
suddenly it rained so went to bathe
meet honey, shirley, sihua, sean, julian &zhihao
then went badminton court
zhihao &zhihao's mum left awhile ltr
aft that went plaza to eat kfc
hun walked with me at ard 9

Friday
was woked up by mum at ard 10
as i am going malaysia in the aftn
so woke up bathe then took my dad's car
reached ipoh at ard 7pm
slacked at my hse and sat on a very comfortable chair
then went out for dinner at night
slept at ard 12am
boring day, spent most of my time on car

today, woke up at ard 1030
watched tv &ate potato chips
then went back to sleep agn
woke up at ard 3pm
bathe then headed out for late lunch
then took a 2hr car ride to genting
reached genting at ard 730pm
my parents drag time until 9plus
went shopping, now using the money i left
on lan, wanted to watch movie
but all full house so too bad
i miss my hse at ipoh, it's great man!

i am going home tmr night
or monday morning
i hope to win some cash tonight
cos i aint gonna sleep

hunnie i miss you!

Labels: i aint cos you're not.

Thursday, August 7, 2008 @ 2:07 PM

You Are the Sense of Sound

You love to talk, but you also love to listen.You are simply a natural conversationalist.You can have a deep conversation that lasts for hours and come out of it feeling energized.You have a good ear for foreign languages and accents of all sorts.You can imitate people quite well.You also are a huge lover of music. You probably love music more than most people you know.

got this quiz for pepper's blog.

What Your Taste in Music Says About You

Your musical tastes are energetic and rhythmic.You are full of energy and can be quite talkative.You are forward thinking and open minded. You despise conservatism of any sort.You are intense, detail oriented, and motivated.You are an ambitious person, though your ambition is anything but conventional.

You Are Sunrise

You enjoy living a slow, fulfilling life. You enjoy living every moment, no matter how ordinary.You are a person of reflection and meditation. You start and end every day by looking inward. Caring and giving, you enjoy making people happy. You're often cooking for friends or buying them gifts.All in all, you know how to love life for what it is - not for how it should be.

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a wanderer. You constantly long for a new adventure, challenge, or eve a completely different life.You are a very grounded, responsible, and realistic person. People may not want to hear the truth from you, but they're going to get it.You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you.Your near future is likely to be filled with great successes and accomplishments. You just need to figure out how to get there.For you, falling in love is all about the adventure and uncertainty. You can only fall in love with someone who keeps you guessing.

What Your Fridge Says About You

You aren't greedy, but you don't really deprive yourself either. You strike a good balance with the stuff you buy.You are not careful with your money. In fact, you rarely think about how much you are spending.You are a very adventurous person. You love to try new things, and you get bored very easily.You try to be responsible, but you don't always succeed. Your heart is in the right place though.You are likely to be married - and very busy.

You Are Likely an Only Child

At your darkest moments, you feel frustrated.At work and school, you do best when you're organizing.When you love someone, you tend to worry about them.In friendship, you are emotional and sympathetic.Your ideal careers are: radio announcer, finance, teaching, ministry, and management.You will leave your mark on the world with organizational leadership, maybe as the author of self-help books.

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are passionate, romantic, and emotional.You put love first in your life, even though you have often been disappointed by it.You expect to be swept of your feet, and you never expect infatuation to die out.Underneath it all, you are scared that you aren't lovable.Your insecurity has ruined many relationships, as you are unable to see the love that's really there.You are secretly afraid of being alone. Confronting your insecurities is incredibly painful.

You Are the Ace of Diamonds

You are a lucky person, and you always seem to find yourself surrounds by pretty, shiny things.You have a knack for success and money - though your skills can't really be learned or taught. You shine in a room, and you a have a truly sparkling personality.A true extrovert, you always are able to share a witty joke or the latest scandalous gossip.While you do have an eye for bling, you are also quite generous.A lot of wealth and luck comes your way. And you're not afraid to pass it on.

A gamble you should take: Sports betting

Your friends would describe you as: Captivating

Your enemies would describe you as: Greed

If you lived in Vegas, you would be: A trophy wife or husband

@ 1:47 PM

Wednesday
it was social studies &Emaths paper
i think i will score single digit for SS
as for maths, i think i get a mere pass
or full marks? wahahas
aft paper went home
change then meet pepper
went swimming then went sk
meet hunny, shirley, kenny, zhihao
leixuan, weishen, jasper
aft they finished swimming
walked to a kopitiam
slacked until 10plus walked home with shir &hun

today is chinese paper
i will definitely fail paper 1
but paper 2 still got hope
i am currently at home
meeting yunting ltr
and go SWIMMING!
post agn when i am free(:

reply of tags:
Jienian: url?

Stranger: noticed something? i think you even more 'guai'
then my dog sey, thanks uh! yeah, i smoke, so?
i got the money to buy as many cigs i want
& i have the money to treat lung cancer
so scared what? you want cigs come find me
i can spare you a stick or 2(:
i am indeed a whore, can you be one?

oh ya stranger, spam some more leh
at least whenever i look at my blog
i can see such 'touching' tags from you.

Passerby: you are?

Jingying: guess what? Jiyou says he's the spammer
hard to believe leh. but i think this is FUN &WHACKY:D

Tuesday, August 5, 2008 @ 4:42 PM

so the spammer havent reply me
currently at hun's hse
going home soon
as they are playing mahjong now
tmr is E maths &social studies
gonna mug hard

today's english prelims
i think compo should be okay
but paper 2 i dont think that way
the first time i tried out this format
summary, cloze passage then 1m ques
mdm teng still asked me
'girl arh, ans write in ans booklet'
me: 'err cher arh, i doing summary'
mdm teng: 'okay, fine then'
-.- anyway i got just enough time

post agn when i am free
spammer spammer faster come spam!

Monday, August 4, 2008 @ 4:25 PM

i am home, early right?
school was boring but it's the last of school
tmr prelims starts, WTF
time flies~~
was avoiding rafi today
how i wish he forgotten me
aft school did dnt again
finally i feel like i am finishing
finished at ard 3plus
bused home with pepper

i am going plaza ltr
gonna catch some sleep first

there is an unknown spammer in my blog
he claimed that i ruin his life or something like that
i never kill anyone, waa say until like i burn his whole family
anyway spam somemre
i really wanna know who you are.
because i dont rmb causing someone to lose so many loved ones
&i noticed that the spammer have extremely bad english
'u donts exist' what a joke. obviously i exist right?
please check dictionary first.

okay i'll wait for your reply
end of post.

Sunday, August 3, 2008 @ 7:16 PM

another post
so there is a total of 3post today
1st one is what happened on saturday
2nd one is blogthings
&now the third one
i really have nothing better to do
ohya i just changed my blogsong

because you loved me
i'm yours
better in time
xie xie

a blog is for people to post what happen in thier daily lifes
for the world to read, seriously anyone can read your blog
so spams &ripping is very common
if you have a blog you must be prepared that stuffs like that
would happen. For me, spammers welcome
i want to hear people's view about what i post
but i dont really care, i seriously cant stand vulgarities
in my blog. People also dont have the right to scold anyone
for typing anything in their blog. okay end of post.

HONEY is missed!

@ 5:58 AM

Your Heart is Feeling Hopeful

For you, love is a feeling that's been growing and blooming.Whether you're in a relationship that's deepening or found a new love, your feelings are slowly changing.You're remembering how amazing love feels - and discovering emotions you've never felt before.
Deep down, your heart is susceptible to: Getting a little carried away
Your current outlook on love: Optimistic and playful
Your love life will improve if you: Stop and reflect on how your love is changing
Watch out for: Falling too hard, too fast - you've got to let your sweetie catch up with you!

Your Love Type: INFP
The Idealist
In love, you crave a long term, harmonious relationship.For you, sex doesn't come quickly - it takes time for you to open up.
Overall, you are supportive, nurturing, and expressive.
However, you tend to be shy and protective of your personal space.
Best matches: ENFJ and ESFJ

You Are A Romantic Realist
You tend to be grounded when it comes to romance.
Sure, you can fall hard... but only for someone you've gotten to know.
And once you're in love, you can be a total romantic goofball...
But you'd never admit it to your friends

You Should Drive a Lamborghini
A true daredevil, you're always in search of a new rush. Clearly, you're a total speed demon... just don't get caught!

You Are More Yin

Feminine
Devoted
Forgiving
Fall
Winter
Afternoon
Moon
Time
Passive
Metal
Honey

okay thats all for today
check it out at blogthings.com
bye all, gotta catch some sleep:D

@ 5:28 AM

Saturday
woke up at ard 1plus msged hun awhile
then went back to sleep
&woke up at ard 4
ate kfc that my mum bought
bathe &got rdy then meet shirley at my hse dwnstairs
aft that took bus over to hun's hse
hunnie, pepper, kenny &zhihao is mahjong-ing
so is quite bored
took over kenny for awhile
aft that took train over to cathay
watch money no enough 2
the show is 12am so zuobo for many hrs
it's super funny &quite sad also
aft the show took cab to hun's hse
stayed there until 4.45am then headed home

just finished bathing gonna sleep soon
tmr's gonna be a boring day
still dont knw where to go
shall sleep till enough enough
bye all.

Saturday, August 2, 2008 @ 1:59 AM

Tuesday
went school for dnt, lols, com hang
so my hardwork's GONE
anyway i finished it today
aft that went kovan meet
hun, kenny, leixuan with pepper &daniel
aft that bused home with hun &daniel

Wednesday
school as usual, cant rmb what happen aft sch
i went home change then went to hun's hse
pepper, kenny &zhihao came
they played mahjong
i went to school for night study
with vincent goh
he didnt cared abt me so i studied maths
mengxuan's dad drove to hun's hse aft that
LOLS, nice daddy:D
slacked awhile there
all of us went home, hun sent me home(:

Thursday
suppose to have dnt lessons with cheung
but she's absent so lessons zuobo
aft school stayed back to complete my work
headed home aft that to change
went plaza to meet fiona awhile
then pepper came over, acc her eat
headed to school tgt
joan tan &ng is so FUCKED UP
thats the only word that i can decribe them
talk until i thristy alr
but 70% is total crapp, lols
biased means biased la
*i didnt mean to use la in my post.
no need say until so nice one
everything also express first
anyway teachers sure win one
but rmb we did pay school fees

aft quarreling with them, took bus to plaza
study there, shirley came over
hun sent me home ard 10

Friday
went to school, school song is so long!
the school now gave us class table agn
&4n4's table is so in frnt
abit not used to it
anyway get caught by rafi
nth much to say
but i will not let this issue affect my mood
monday then say
stayed back to finish up my dnt
home aft that took a short nap
bathe then went plaza to meet shirley
aft that went to the new complex in sk
meet hun &junjie there
aft that went daniel's hse playground to slack
hun walked me home aft that

gonna go watch movie tmr
pepper say gonna play mahjong
lols, it must depends on what time i can wake up
short of sleep, i need to replenish
okay post more another day
sorry i have been busy
so may not be posting that often.